It’s so far in the future that it’s hard to fathom how we ever step off this treadmill !? The default solution – Go spend it up. Max out the credit card, buy a new car, swap the perfect bike for something cool and expensive. But deep down, the majority of me knows “That’s a counter-productive, useless, herd-mentality thought process”.
Doesn’t mean the thought isn’t there or prevalent.
“It’s not easy, you know!” a wise man once said.
There’s a storm blowing over the hillside this evening as I type these thoughts. A violent African thunderstorm that, if I were aboard OB at anchor, I’d be nipping, big time! On the one hand, the wind is a welcome relief from the heat of the day. On the other, I think, at anchor this would be a nightmare. But that’s just stupid. I’m not at anchor am I!? What is the point of being concerned about that if i’m not in that situation ?
Instead of just enjoying the violence, the beauty, the cool that the storm brings?
What the heck is wrong with this picture?
The positive? No mozzies are going to get us with this wind blowing!
Damn, I’m on edge tonight. Frustrated with the feeling of “stuck”. Afraid to quit. Afraid to take the risk. What the heck does the future hold? I don’t want the present but am too afraid of the uncertain future to make a break with the current.
Damn. Damn. Damn!!